Oh, by the way...

...for anyone wondering because of the end of my "In the Black" post, the weekend I referred to, at the end of June, went pretty well for me. There were a couple bad moments, but overall it was good. Restful. Not very productive, but it gave me the energy to start the following week well. Ooh, and I had a ton of fun seeing Brave with Joi. Those of you who thought of and/or prayed for me, thank you.

As for my friend's family, well, moving is a long adjustment. They made it to their new state safely, but I think they could still use your prayers. Thanks again.

"In the Black"

"In the Black," from Got to Fly by Marian Call

In the Black

Guitar: Kyle Harrington / Piano: Paul Pew / Violin: Adam Stewart

You’re in the black – in the black – in the black — ain’t it lovely baby

Not coming back, in the black – ain’t you free

No more debts – no more threats – you’re in the black, baby

Left it all behind – must feel fine – must feel fine

But we  —-    wish we could see  you

We thought you might find time to write us now and then

You’re free —  now and you’re lonely

I love you, but please do not ask me to pretend

Come home if you want a friend

I’m right on task – since you asked – I’m doing great, really I am

I don’t blink, I don’t think, I just press on, press on

I’m doing fine – I’m not inclined to crack anytime soon baby

Left us all behind but we’re still fine – swear we’re fine

But we cry for no reason

Late at night when we run out of thoughtless things to do

You’re free now and you’re lonely

Please come home so we can cry with you

I hear that you cry too

We cannot bring you back when home’s not home

We can’t make you pay debts you will not own

We cannot reason with the unforeseen

We can’t compromise when there’s no in-between

CHORUS

This review is dedicated to my very very good friend Rachel. She and her family are moving thousands of miles away, and I'm going to miss them. Miss her. A LOT.

The song isn't perfect for this situation. I can't in good conscience appeal for them to "come home," this move is too good for them. But then, parts of it are still wildly appropriate, like "ain't you free / No more debts."

The phrase "in the black" is from Firefly, for Got to Fly is a wonderfully nerdy album inspired both by Firefly and Battlestar Galactica. The song and the phrase work on their own, apart from Firefly, all the normal senses of the words are kept in mind, but there's added meaning. Being in the black ("out here, in the 'Verse") has to do with freedom, adventure... and, well, yes. Freedom.

Rachel and her family are going on a new adventure, though it hardly feels like it right now, even for them. Again, I do not appeal for them to come home. Nor do I think I'm going to have to say, "We thought you might find time to write us now and then." But the sad notes are all exactly right. For that matter, so is "We can't compromise when there's no in-between."

This song has been a favorite of mine, an obsessive favorite, longer and more consistently than any other Marian Call song, I think. Which is saying something. The line that really gets me every time, the line that forced me to go back and memorize the chorus until I could sing it every time the mood or the thought struck me, is "But we cry for no reason / Late at night when we run out of thoughtless things to do." Along the same lines, I also love the entire verse right before it.

I'm not sure why I love it so blindingly compulsively much -- the concept is hardly new, in itself. Perhaps I've never seen it expressed in song form before? Certainly not expressed so well. Though many people can relate to the grief in a friend moving away, or in moving away themselves, the song works for, well, all griefs, all losses, as far as I'm concerned. I think of all the times I've been depressed, with or without a reason, and staved it off for a bit with a novel or the Internet or some game on my cell phone. But it always comes back stronger, afterward. Sometimes it can't be staved off at all. Those are some of the moments when I love singing this song. I also sing it when I'm happy, in memory and in gratitude for the music and words.

Rachel and Tim, I hope it helps you, too.

Those of you who pray, please pray for them. Pray also for me and for my family. We have other drama of our own going on over the weekend, about which I will have to remain vague. (I should pick a code name for it...) It's related to the vague stuff in the March Madness post, and it means I could be quite lonely this weekend.

Lack of extreme depression is to be desired (even more than usual), for two reasons. One, it's better for my health and thus for my baby's health to not be sucked into that blackness right now. Two, I need to get some unpacking and cleaning done over the weekend, which will be basically impossible if I'm stuck in a depression pit. So pray especially on Friday for me, as that's when it all begins, both Rachel's family moving and my family drama stuff. Thank you.

Now that's just creepy... :)

I mean, houseplants aren't supposed to write notes.

Because awesome friends are awesome.

This is what greeted me when I came in to work on Monday:

Click to embiggen. Of course.

Note the fine print at the bottom.

The Klingon house plant is my favorite. It's on a shelf above my desk, not at eye level, so I didn't notice it at first. I was also pretty slow to notice Marcy-chan, and slowest of all to catch that it's best to stay face up.

Thanks, Rachel! As I said, because awesome friends are awesome.

Anyone else with fun stories, things friends have done to make your work environment just a little cheerier? Though I'm guessing no one else would put a "Mongoose of efficiency" post-it at your computer...